i Have The Best friends EVER

- for being the only peeps who understand "how much i love food"

- for giving me the chance to talk over and over again about silly things 

- for having the best times ever when at work

- for taking me to 9alat eljyam today "it really felt good"

- for not hesitating to pull my clothes or even hit me in the head when i say or do something wrong

- for being the best "fene 7asha" buddy when am desperately in need for one

-for helping me when am into too much pressure and i still have lots of unfinished task

-for being there when i feel like gaging and nagging

- for making me feel that "i really grew up" even though "F.alsha6i don't believe so" :P

luv u friendaty el3azezat

ps: this post is just for F.alsha6i and F.mu6 

I Am my worst enemy

i admit that i mistreat myself  ..

how ?

by forgiving people while i shouldn't and for giving them chances even without them asking

of course am not an angel and i don't act like that with everyone one but here comes the problem:
it's those people whom i choose to make special and definitely don't deserve being so

i know i need to fix thing in my life and change the way i think and bla bla blaa but whom am i trying to lie to .... it doesn't work

the other thing that made me realize how bad am i to myself is :
gosh i hate to even believe it but , the way i think of my self .
for example i know that it's stupid to be like this but when something goes wrong i always blame me even if i did nothing wrong and then i make it even worst by punishing my self
crying
running after things not because i want them but because i convinced me that i do after being rejected

funny thing but i do have the habit of pushing the people who want me and treat me right away and going after what's dark, mysterious and scary " anything that runs away is an attraction to me"

so am i being stupid or am i a big FAT drama queen

WTF with me :s ??

hideous

wow am amazingly stupid

i have this habit of forgetting my blog "as in literally" forgetting the web site

and then i spend days and weeks  googling  to finally get all the silly results , and non of them include my blog

eventually i realize that i could simply just enter the original website and sign in from there


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